Introduction

I am 40 years old in this 2010th year of the Gregorian calendar. I have experienced a lot in the last 40 years, both good and bad. However, I struggled with a profound unhappiness and as I reached my early thirties a deep depression began to set in. I never really understood why I was depressed. I just accepted that it was genetic; my father has been depressed as long as I can remember. Last year something happened to me that caused me to take a different look at my life and begin to re-examine decisions and assumptions about myself. I will get to that later.

For now, I can tell you that I am happy, but have to work to make that true on a daily basis. I am struggling to process childhood abuse, creating abundance in my life, accepting the path life brings, starting a business, healing my mind and spirit, getting clear on what I want and asking for it, parenting and creating/maintaining a healthy marriage. As I write this blog with unknown frequency I will explore each of these topics over time.

I am a growing man and have found I needed a place to reflect upon this growth. I hope you can get something useful from my journey find my place in the world.